You're a puzzle. Completely challenging and complicated. But a puzzle is a source of entertainment and joy. It's also a way to enhance one's skills and knowledge. I, myself, feel wiser whenever I am able to complete a puzzle of some sort and I do feel proud whenever I succeeded. But you, you're an utterly different puzzle. No, you're not just a puzzle. You're that, mid-terms, finals, pop quiz, and long test all compressed into a being--you. And I feel pressured, anxious, and weak at the sight of you. You make me crazy. I get all these weird feelings inside of me everytime I am in your presence and I do not know what else should I do to stop feeling this. And we all know we are not talking about some shit exam or puzzle game here, we're talking about you. The guy I am so madly inlove with. I just don't get why it's still you even after all these times, even when you've already broken my heart, it's still you. When I look at you, my heart still skips a beat, it falters and I get weak. Whenever we'd talk, I still get butterflies. And when I look into your eyes I see the beautiful night sky painted with shimmering stars. But then when I'm all alone I remember you and all the pain you caused and the trouble you brought. And I see why the constellations and these celestialities exist; for 2AM nights where I can't sleep and when I remember you. You're the reason for the darkness in my room and the void that I stare into in deep thought. And every waking moment is spent thinking about you and reminiscing about us and how it used to be. You're the most precious thing I've ever laid my eyes on and I touched the fire and it burned. My heart's broken but it still yearns for your touch and the sound of your voice. And I still cry and get jealous. I'm still on this downward spiral and my head is spinning like mad and I see stars. And I still don't have answers to all these questions bottling up inside of me like, why do I still love you? But I dived in the water so long ago that I decided to just continue swimming. And when it rains, it pours
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